I dont know where to start or what to do everything around me feels like it isn't accepting me whether the people or the things which aren't for me ....
I dont know when I started to fell envious of the people when they were being praised or when the overthinking of not being able to be the friend they want started ....
Since childhood I have made mistake and I have deeply regretted it ... because of that I have lost many people from my life and i keep repeating that .... I dont know why I am like that .... that's why I dont want any new person for me ... I dont know what grave mistake I would do in the future as I feel like it would hurt them or they wouldn't be able to understand me that why I was like that or did that .... I am a very secretive type of person like i have that thing even if I know can say that I was right I can proof that or why I did that at that time I won't vocal it i dont know why something in me everytime stops me to make that person understand that I wasn't totally wrong or please listen to me once ... I guess all the people thinks like this .... I know what I am saying is a bit childish but if someone really wanna understand me that why I did that I would maybe tell them the reason one day.......
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